Where there is a will, there is a way!

I have a will to succeed. Lately, something bad happened to me that just put my life in reverse gear. It was a stupid mistake that I made for which I have to suffer. I am ready to mend it but unfortunately the decision to give me that chance rests in someone else's hands.
And I am scared, not about whether I can mend it, but whether I will get that chance. I am scared to even hope because for some reason I have become way more superstitious than I ever was. I thought of myself as an optimistic person, I always found solutions to problems. But now I am scared that my optimism will jinx my chances of being happy...
in the last few months, my hopes have turned against me. so I think not hoping is the best thing to do for now.. all I need to do is to keep trying hard to reach my goals..
i have come up with my own quote .. sort of my motto - 'Effort is Everything'

Actions speak louder than words

I always believed in this saying and didn't realize that there is another side to it until yesterday when someone's actions spoke so much louder than their words, they almost screamed and I wished I were deaf.

Trust, love, confidence dissolved in the tears shed.

It has left me in a state where words don't mean anything anymore, neither mine nor his.

Why is it that men can be bastards and women must wear pearls and smile?

I have come to not believing in the above statement...
I hope it stays this way.

11june2009.. sadly it didn't .. 

don't know what to write ... so just posting a song I have been listening to right now...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HTxs53QkO90&feature=related